Day In The Life 7.15.12

Today was the perfect example of the importance of going off the beaten path on a journey. I was on my way to my two day get away and decided to visit a nearby attraction that I’ve always wanted to see. Not only was it incredibly beautiful… I had the opportunity to meet some very nice people and take some amazing photos. I’ve been on a little hiatus as of late with my photography and it felt so wonderful and relaxing to look at the world from the refreshing perspective of a camera.

The detour also provided some extra activity time to stall the time needed to check into this amazing resort. Wow! On the ocean, two golf courses, several pools, a one bedroom suite, my own concierge… was not expecting this! I feel incredibly spoiled and I’ll take it. After all, it IS my “ME” weekend. Time to get my brain in alignment and figure out what I need to focus on in my future. I try to do this at least once a year. This place is perfect.

I can’t tell you how bad I wanted to reach out and call one of my NSA boys to meet me here and have a much needed booty call. But, then, I thought… this weekend is about me. Hopefully soon, though… this girl is really in need of some lovin’. It’s been too long. I’m also contemplating to jump back into the official dating scene and see if a long term relationship in more in order. I don’t want to play second fiddle anymore. The sex is amazing and so risky, but when all is said and done… it’s so empty, too. I just need to figure which type of relationship I WANT to pursue. Both have their benefits and not so desirable aspects. Perhaps the NSA thing can sustain me until Mr. Right comes along. Who knows, really. One day at a time, I guess.

Went kayaking yesterday. Such a beautiful place with clear blue spring water. You could see all the way to the bottom. Gorgeous! The trip became interesting, though. The friend I usually go with brought someone with him that I’m not sure how to describe their relationship. I know that they dated in the past. I think they may have a friends with benefits going on. Or something… so hard to tell. I’m completely easy to get along with… however, she was so stand offish from the moment she arrived at the meeting location. I think she thought we were all there for her. She didn’t talk the entire way to the kayak location and then lurked 20-30min behind the rest of us so that my kayak friend would stay back with her and tow her. He did it, of course, like a little puppy dog. But it made for a very segregated trip where they lurked behind and we moved forward at a slow pace yet somehow ended up 20-30min ahead. She was just inconsiderate, that’s all. And THAT is a bit of a pet peeve of mine. So… needless to say… I won’t be going on many trips if she’ there. (Unless, of course, there are lots of really cool people who go along, too.)

Ok… Off my soapbox. And signing off, too. Relaxing day ahead tomorrow. Looking forward to it! 🙂

Day In The Life 7.5.12

Another July 4th in the can and I spent it at home relaxing.  This year my friends who I normally spend the holiday with gorging on incredible grilled and smoked meats lovingly prepared since the day before were out of town.  I definitely missed watching my friend execute his minute by minute plan with the brisket, burgers and BBQ.  Watching him his like watching a beautifully choreographed meat-a-palooza.  If he could make love to his meats… he would.  He talks to them.  Strokes them.  Caresses them.  And tends to their every whim to make sure that they come out just perfect.  And they often do to the delight of us who carnivorously take part in each of the various meats’ demise.  The meats are so incredible!!!!!

I’m not one to brave the large holiday crowds to watch fireworks.  Happy moments seem to turn into frustration when finding a parking spot is close to impossible.  You grab your lawn chair and blanket only to walk miles to a spot that ends up being in front of a tree.  Everyone is so hot and tired around you.  Then children scream out of extreme fear once the pyrotechnics light up the night sky.  The combination of “oohs” and “aahs” and blood curdling screams just don’t seem like a wonderful way to spend the evening for this single girl without children.  Instead, I had a nice glass of wine and sat out on my balcony watching all of the store-bought fireworks right in front of me and as little sparks of light on the horizon in front of me.  The only sounds around me were the pops of the fireworks and crickets.  Now THAT is a fantastic, relaxing way to spend the holiday.  Wouldn’t you agree?

Back to work today.  Can’t complain, though.  Tomorrow is already Friday.  Who could ask for anything more?   Made the mistake today of eating a large lunch and dinner by going out with friends.  I really can’t move right now.  This is what Jabba the Hutt must have felt like.  Seriously.  I feel disgusting.

On the guy front… not a lot of news.   I did receive another text from my clingy first NSA guy.  He just doesn’t get it.  I’ve told him it’s over… quite a while ago.  Yet, he can’t stop texting me to try to hook up.  Another night of not responding.  The boy needs to get laid… but, it’s not going to be by this girl.  Not opening up that door again for him.  He needs to find the line and quit stepping over it.  He’s hedging on the line of being creepy.  I’ve cut off all communication for a while now.  Opening it would only encourage him.  Something I definitely do NOT want to do.  Oy.

One day at a time.

A Day In The Life 6.25.12

All of this rain is SO depressing.   I miss the sun!!!!   I could sleep the entire day… and there is just WAY too much to do.  On a lighter note, I think we’ve lost our rainfall deficit all in the matter of 24hrs.

On the dating front, new guy reached out today… through the internet dating site and not via cell phone or text.  Why is that?  We’ve already made contact, had a nice date and said we’d meet again.  Why can’t he just call or send a text?   I’m really keeping my mind and heart open on this one, but it isn’t boding well.  I make very complex decisions every day and tell people what to do (very nicely and diplomatically, I might add).  The last thing I want in a relationship is to take charge there, too.  After a long days work, I want to be taken care of, have decisions made for me and be spoiled.  Is that so wrong?  And where can I find these guys without having a no strings attached relationship?  Do these relationships exist?   I don’t want to be in a relationship where I’m the “mom” whose sole purpose just to take care of him.  Been there… did that and hated it.  The “mommy” relationship truly is a one-way relationship where I feel like I’m on the wrong side of the road getting run over.  I’m a girl who likes to be spoiled and taken care of and in return… I do the same for my man.

Eureka!  That’s it… I’m a conundrum!   By day, I’m mild-mannered business professional who takes charge and accomplishes tasks with million dollar budgets.  By night, I’m just a girl who likes to be a girl and be spoiled by her man. Actually, after that description, I might be a superhero with an alter ego. Great!  Now how in the hell am I going to find me a hunka hunka burnin’ love who wants that?   Eh… I’m happy.  We’ll let nature take its course.  If it’s meant to be, it’ll happen.  In the meantime, I’ll be happy and continue to live my life to the fullest.  Either way, I still get to enjoy every minute of it.

As I write this, I realize that it’s going to be a difficult night to sleep.  Debby’s winds are picking up which blows up the underside of the roof awnings and slams them down.   Perhaps I can drown them out with the sounds of the ocean from my alarm clock.   Relaxing… relaxing… relaxing… SLAM!!!!!!   Relaxing… relaxing… relaxing… SLAM!!!!!!   This could be interesting.  I may find myself in the fetal position begging my body to let me sleep.

On that note… there’s always tomorrow.