Thanks for your patience. Being on a staycation can really throw off any resemblance of a routine. However, having rest and relaxation as the alternative to that routine is an incredible trade out. I’ll take it! So much has happened since my last posting…
The Financial Advisor came over and we had an incredible time. He’s so kind and considerate and we made nooky so many times that I lost count. I was secretly looking forward to him leaving in the morning so that I could get some rest! Since he’s left, I’ve had time to reflect on our time spent together. It’s a wonderful No Strings Attached relationship, however, I’m getting a little confused on where that line is for the emotional connection. I’m a firm believer that a connection has to be there for the sex to be amazing, however, when does it step over the line into being a real relationship. I’m not looking for the real deal right now, but apparently Mr. Financial Advisor seems to think otherwise. Over the past month, I didn’t hear anything from him until he wanted to get together (Note: Exactly what I want out of this arrangement.) and then Thursday night he referred to our incredible time together as “making love.” But, I don’t LOVE him. I just really enjoy spending time with him. I am a little worried that he might be attached more… but is that reason to end it? He already asked me to spend time with him tonight… I’m backing off. Not through any fears of mine, but I don’t want to give the impression that I’m going to drop everything to be with him. If he were a long-term relationship, that might be another story. But, this is not going to be anything more than it is. Incredible as it may be. :)
The remainder of this long weekend and the last days of my staycation have been spent reflecting on life, spending time with friends and studying creative writing. The relaxation continues although I must now ramp up for heading back into the office. I took a quick look at my Blackberry today and so much work has piled since I’ve been gone. Looks like some long work days are in my near future. But, all this time off makes it so worth it.
The highlight, however, of this past weekend was the opportunity to do a bioluminescence kayaking tour at night. It was incredible! Kayaking in the dark with a group of friends under the beautiful, starry night made for some incredible reflection time. The night also lended itself an opportunity to see shooting stars, unphased alligators allowing us to see them up close, and the need to completely trust those around you. I had no idea where we were, however, our guide made us feel comfortable and always led us where we needed to go. And then… we made it to the height of the bioluminescent activity. The glow of the water and the sparkle of the bioluminescence in my hand-made the experience magical. There is nothing natural that glows and sparkles in the dark like that. We all felt like that we were in this place that only existed in fairytales. Because we were in the dark, we very well could have been.
The days in the life of late have been incredible. I am truly blessed.